CHOOSING THE ALPHA

In the east of Nile creek

I had grown up in this city and was currently living here with my werewolf husband Antonio, except I didn't feel like I was in a marriage anymore.

I was pregnant for him but had lost the child in an accident and my husband's heart held someone else, not me.

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Two months ago I was involved in an accident on my way back from work and that accident resulted in a miscarriage, yes I was pregnant.

Today was another appointment since the abortion surgery, so Antonio accompanied me for a checkup, mid-way into the check up he suddenly left without telling me where or why.

I did not bother to stop him or plead for his company like I did in the past. I watched Antonio's back as he hurried away from the room his wife was having a check up in. An unexpected wave of detachment washed over me. I suddenly realised that his presence or absence held little effect over my emotions.

A nurse called my name, and I went to retrieve the test results before gathering my things. My phone made a beeping sound and I held it to see it was a message from Antonio which read

I wasn't surprised by the message, I was already prepared to leave on my own. In the past, I would have refused and begged him to come get me, but not anymore. Now, it just felt pointless to do so.

Staring at the text once more, I simply typed . I put away my phone and left the hospital hailing a cab that passed by. I settled into the backseat when I looked up to find Antonio's car parked infront of the hospital. Why would he return to the hospital when he said he could not pick me up?

I decided to ignore him and told the cab driver to drive. The journey wasn't long and soon I arrived at home.

My phone made a notification sound and I pulled it out to see a post on Instagram from a user ‘Lovely One’. I opened the post and it revealed a write up “I only had a sore throat, but he insisted I go to the hospital and even kept me company and is still here now, you're the best” and this user had tagged my husband Antonio in the post.

Coincidentally, Sophie, a contact of mine posted a photo on her story with the exact same words. In the photo I could see a cropped out person but the cloth they wore had entered the picture and I had no doubt it was Antonio as that was the shirt I had bought for him on his birthday.

Sophie Davis was a member of the pack Antonio was part of, they had known each other since childhood and were lovers until Sophie married a wolf from a different pack. The user ‘Lovely One’ was Sophie. Sophie had moved out of town with her wealthy husband but their pack had dissolved after a tragedy leaving them rougues, not wanting that for their four year old child, Sophie divorced her husband and came back to her pack.

I hadn't noticed it before but I had realised I was just a rebound for Antonio since Sophie left. At that time I was blindly in love with him though he was a werewolf and agreed to marry him, I even went as far as to get pregnant for him, I guess part of me wanted to be enough for him though I was not one of his kind. The miscarriage must have been a sign that this was a mistake.

After taking the prescribed medication, I felt drowsy and went into the bedroom to sleep.

The creak of the door in the night woke me up.

"What did the doctor say today?" Antonio asked when he noticed I was awake and came to my bedside, he raised his hand to stroke my hair but I caught a foreign scent on him, a woman's perfume and avoided his hand.

"Nothing important." I forced a smile and continued, "Everything's fine."

Antonio nodded and offered a hurried explanation, "Work just got hectic and I've been kept busy lately." I hadn't even asked for an explanation, it was his guilty conscience.

Instead of calling him out on his lie, I rolled over and faced the other side. “You should take a shower before going to bed." He seemed to hesitate for a moment, but he said nothing, I realised he had stood up, then I heard the shower running.