The war room beneath the Falcone social club had not gone dark in three days.
The killing of the unnamed girl, the one they still called only the Jane brought up from the westside dumping ground, had put every soldier in the Family on the floor around the clock. Ashtrays overflowed. Cold espresso sat forgotten in bone-china cups. The Donna herself had not gone home since the body came in, buried behind stacks of dossiers and the low, endless murmur of men reporting in and being sent back out into the dark.
With Serena away on one of her convent-school retreats, there was no one to carry the covered dishes down the back stairs the way she always did. No one to arrange them just so and press a warm hand to the Donna's shoulder and remind her to eat. The room had gone without that softness for days, and the men had noticed the way you notice weather turning cold.
Late one night, while Nico moved down the long table handing out folded packets of food to the men on the graveyard watch, he let his mouth run the way it always did when the hours got long. He rubbed the back of his neck and kept the joke going a beat past where a wiser man would have stopped.
"No delivery from the borrowed daughter tonight, eh, Donna?" He set a packet down near her elbow, then hovered, filling the silence with more words. "And I've never once laid eyes on your own blood. Your true-born girl. You keeping her locked away somewhere so none of us get any ideas about stealing her out of the house?"
The Donna's hand had been reaching for the food. It stopped. Her brow drew down, a small cold thing, and she withdrew the hand as though the packet had turned to something spoiled.
"Do not bring that one into this room," she said. Her voice was even, which was worse than shouting. "Even the sound of her name in my mouth sours the night."
Nico, deaf to the shift in the temperature the way only a loyal fool can be, ploughed on. He meant it kindly. That was the pity of it. "Word around the house is you got passed over for the seat once, years back. Because you were carrying a child at the time, and the old men didn't want a woman with a belly at the head of the table. And you never quite got the shot again after that. That's a hard thing, Donna. A hard thing."
He clapped a fist into his open palm, a soldier's clumsy attempt at cheer. "But hey. Maybe you break this case wide open, deliver the one who spilled the girl's blood, and the whole city finally kneels the way it should have all along. Maybe this is the thing that gets you everything they owed you."
The Donna lifted her eyes to him, flat and unamused, and the men nearest her found reasons to study their papers. "Let us keep our minds on the dead girl," she said. "Spare me the chatter. Or you can watch every other man in this room rise while you stay exactly where you are."
I stood at her side, where I always stood now, where no living hand could feel me, and I laughed. It came up out of me quiet and bitter, a sound only the dead can make.
I thought, Mother, if my death is the thing that finally buys you the seat you've bled for all these years, then perhaps it's worth something after all. Perhaps it settles the account. God knows all those years of "raising" me came to so little. You were never anything close to the mother the code demands.
My hand rose to my throat, to the silver chain that was not there anymore, that would never be there again, the one my father the old Don had pressed into my palm with the two letters cut into it. I reached for it the way a living girl reaches for something to hold when the floor tilts under her. My fingers closed on nothing. They always closed on nothing now.
Maybe because my name had risen up in the room like smoke, or maybe because some thread between us had not been entirely cut, the Donna drew her phone from inside her jacket and dialed my number. I watched the screen light up. She had never troubled to save it under anything. No name. No small mark of belonging. Just a string of digits, cold as the marble under her boots, the number of someone who had never quite become a person to her.
I looked, because I could not help looking, at the top of her contacts. Pinned there, held above every soldier and captain and made man in the Family, above the surgeon and the watchers and even the old matriarch upstairs, was Serena. Her name. And beside it, drawn by the Donna's own hand, a small red heart.
The phone rang out into the dead girl's silence, unanswered, ringing to no one at all.
