Willow's POV
Driven by a sudden, cold burst of intuition, I bypassed the bathroom and went straight to my laptop desk. I opened the browser and navigated to Facebook. Years ago, during our sophomore year of high school, I had been the one to set up his profile, and we had never changed the password. It was a relic of an era of absolute transparency. I typed in the familiar string of characters, my heart hammering a frantic rhythm against my ribs as the home screen loaded.
I bypassed the newsfeed and clicked directly on the messenger icon. The inbox that materialized before my eyes felt like a physical blow to the sternum.
There wasn't just a single message from Jessa. The archive was a catalog of betrayal. There were active chat threads from six distinct girls within our immediate geographical area. One of the most recent was from Jen—the girl from the phone call. Her messages were graphic, filled with casual references thanking him for "good times," explicitly asking when he was going to come back over to her apartment, and leaving her contact details.
I scrolled further down, my eyes burning as I opened a long, ongoing group thread between Nick and a guy named Anton—presumably the owner of the house from last night. The messages stretched back for over six months. They were an unvarnished chronicle of degradation. Every single exchange was packed with casual references to buying cocaine, doing lines in various basements, attending wild parties, and systematically hooking up with what they referred to as "hot chicks" while I was away at school.
By the time I finally forced myself to log out of the account, I was sobbing so violently I could barely see the screen. The illusion was shattered completely. He hadn't made a solitary, tragic mistake due to loneliness and alcohol. He had systematically dismantled the relationship, transforming himself into a serial cheater who treated my absence as a license for a drug-fueled playground.
Sitting there in the quiet house, a strange, cold clarity washed over the sorrow. The crying stopped. I realized, with absolute certainty, that I was done. As much as my heart tore at the realization that the Nick I loved no longer existed, the truth was that I had lost him a long, long time ago. I had just been too far away to see the rot setting in.
I stood up, walked into the bathroom, and took a long, hot shower, turning the water up until my skin was flushed red, trying to wash away the phantom filth of his choices. When I stepped out, I intentionally bypassed my casual loungewear. Instead, I selected a vibrant, beautiful yellow sundress from my closet. I spent an hour meticulously styling my hair and applying my makeup, using the cosmetics as a form of war paint. It was a purely defensive psychological maneuver; if I was going to face the executioner of my past, I wanted him to see exactly how magnificent the life was that he had so carelessly thrown away.
By the time I stepped back into the living room, the hands of the kitchen clock were approaching noon. I sat on the edge of the sofa, my hands clasped tightly in my lap, the quiet of the house amplified by the ticking of the clock.
Exactly at twelve, the silence was shattered by the violent screech of tires tearing into our gravel driveway. Within a matter of seconds, a heavy, frantic pounding rattled the front door on its hinges, accompanied by Nick ’s voice, raised in a volatile shout. “Willow! Willow, open the fucking door! Let me in!”
I stood up, smoothed down the skirt of my yellow dress, and walked toward the entryway. I threw the door open, standing firm in the frame, my expression a mask of absolute coldness. “Keep your voice down, Nick ,” I growled, stepping back to let him enter.
The moment my eyes locked onto his physical form up close, a cold shock wave went through me. He looked utterly ruined. The change wasn't subtle; he had lost an alarming amount of weight since spring break, his frame angular and skeletal beneath his clothes. His skin possessed a sickly, translucent gray pallor, and his eyes were bloodshot, surrounded by deep, purplish hollows that spoke of days without sleep.
The moment he saw me, a manic, unsettling smile spread across his features. He didn't wait for an invitation; he pushed violently past me into the narrow hallway, turning instantly to grab my shoulders. He pulled me against his thin chest, using his foot to kick the front door shut behind him with a loud slam.
“Get off of me, Nick !” I cried out, my hands immediately coming up to plant against his collarbones, pushing with all my strength to create space as he bent his head down, attempting to force his lips against mine. What the hell was wrong with him?
Did he truly believe, after everything he had confessed to, that he could simply show up on my doorstep, flash a smile, and force a physical reconciliation? I shoved him back with a vicious burst of energy, breaking his grip and leveling a lethal, uncompromising glare at his face. “Nick , stop it right now. We are here to talk. That is it.”
His expression shifted instantly, the manic smile vanishing to reveal a dark, volatile anger that flickered behind his bloodshot eyes before he managed to pull a mask of contrition back over it. “Fine. Let’s talk,” he said, his voice dropping into a tense, vibrating register. “I’ll do anything you want, Willow. I’ll do whatever it takes to make this right. I just need you back. You are mine. You’ve always been mine.”
The possessive cadence of his words made a sharp knot of panic twist in my chest. He was entirely different from the boy I had known since childhood, stripped of the gentle, protective aura that had always defined him. I was starting to feel genuinely unsafe in my own living room.
