Willow's POV
In the middle of these nostalgic reflections, the violent vibration of my phone inside my leather purse shattered my train of thought. I scrambled for the zipper, my heart skipping a beat as his name and photo flashed across the digital screen.
“Hey handsome, I'm already counting down the minutes until I see you tonight,” I answered, leaning back against the terminal glass, letting my voice carry the full weight of my excitement.
A heavy, static-laden silence stretched across the line for several agonizing seconds before any sound returned. When he finally spoke, his voice was thin, stripped of its usual warmth. “Uh… hey… uh… Willow.”
The hesitation was an immediate red flag. The cadence of his greeting was entirely wrong, infused with a jagged, nervous energy that instantly put me on high alert.
“What’s going on, babe?” I asked, my tone shifting from playful anticipation to cautious concern. “I’ve been worried sick. Your phone was completely dead all day yesterday. Is everything alright over there?”
Another protracted pause followed, long enough that I pulled the phone away from my ear to verify that the call hadn't dropped. When he returned, his breath was coming in short, shallow gasps. “Willow, I need to tell you something right now, before you get back, before anyone else has a chance to talk to you. God, sweetie, before I say this… I need you to know, absolutely know, that I love you more than anything in this world.”
A cold dread pooled in the pit of my stomach, heavy and sharp. “Of course I know you love me, Nick ,” I said, my voice rising slightly as the anxiety broke through my composure. “I love you too, but you’re seriously terrifying me right now. Just tell me what’s happening. What did you do?”
The silence that followed felt like an eternity, a vacuum that sucked the air straight out of the airport terminal. When he finally broke it, his words were rushed, tumbling over one another in a desperate bid to get the confession over with. “Well, you remember how I told you I was going to that party on Friday night over at Jessa’s place?”
“Yeah,” I replied, my voice dropping an octave, becoming guarded, hesitant. “I remember.”
“Well, I had a massive amount to drink, and the house was packed, and I was just so intensely lonely. I miss you so damn much, Willow; it’s been so fucking brutal trying to survive here without you. Anyway, I was just sitting in the back room, trying to chill, and Jessa came back there. She kept hitting on me, all night long. I mean, she just wouldn't drop it, she wouldn't leave me alone. And I was so wasted, and so tired of being alone, that I finally just… I gave in to her. Fuck, I can’t even believe I’m saying this out loud; I slept with her, Willow. It just happened.”
The words hung in the air between New Haven and California, heavy and toxic. For a long moment, my brain simply refused to process the syllables. The English language, which I had used to defend complex architectural theses, suddenly became a foreign tongue.
“W… what?” The syllable was a broken whisper. “There’s no way. I didn’t hear you right. You would never do that to me. Not you.”
“I’m so incredibly sorry, sweetheart,” he whispered back, his voice cracking with a performance of misery that made my skin crawl.
A violent, uncontrollable tremor took hold of my hands. My knees went weak, and I had to lean heavily against the terminal wall just to keep myself from collapsing onto the floor. The phone felt like a block of ice against my ear, heavy and frozen. The conversational universe dissolved into absolute silence as my mind spun out of control, trying to reconcile the boy from the school bus with the person on the other end of the line.
“Say something, Willow,” he pleaded, his whisper cutting through my paralysis. “Please, say something.”
The shock, having saturated every cell in my body, suddenly reached its flashpoint. The paralysis dissolved, replaced instantly by a blinding, white-hot fury that surged through my veins. “Why the hell are you choosing this exact moment to tell me this, Nick ? I am literally sitting in a crowded airport terminal! Did you really not have the absolute balls to wait until I was home so you could say it to my face?” I demanded, my voice shaking with a rage so profound it terrified me.
“I’m sorry, sweetie, I really am,” he stammered, his defensive armor slipping into place. “I just didn’t want someone else to blab to you before I got the chance to explain. There were a lot of our mutual friends at that house, and I was so completely out of it, I wasn’t even attempting to hide what I was doing. I’m so sorry, sweetie; please, you have to tell me that one stupid, meaningless mistake isn’t going to completely ruin what we spent six years of our lives building. I am so, so sorry. God, I’m miserable.”
I could hear the tremor of tears in his throat, the genuine panic of a child who had broken a priceless heirloom, but I found myself entirely devoid of empathy. The reservoir of tenderness I had maintained for him for over a decade had vanished in a single sentence.
“Nick , how the hell could you do this to us?” I shouted, entirely uncaring of the sharp glances from the business travelers and families moving past my gate. I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to force down the volume of my voice but failing to contain the agony. “I loved you more than my own life, and you couldn't even manage to keep your pants zipped for a few more days? Three days, Nick ! A few flipping days!”
“I didn't mean for it to happen! I was completely trashed, Willow. I don’t even have a clear memory of the night. I wouldn’t even know it happened if I hadn’t woken up in the morning next to that bitch. You know how much I’ve always hated her. You know I would never, ever have touched her if I had been sober.”
