I don't know how long I lay on the floor.
The thunder kept rolling, indifferent, shaking the windows in their frames while I pressed both hands against my stomach and tried to breathe through the pain. It came in waves—hot, tearing, wrong in a way that had nothing to do with bruised muscle. This was deeper. This was the kind of pain that meant something was happening that couldn't unhappen.
Aviana was gone. At some point she had simply left, as quietly as she'd come in.
I got my knees under me. That took a while. The hardwood was cold against my palms and I focused on that—the cold, the grain of the wood, the specific pressure of my own weight—because if I thought about anything else I would stop moving. I couldn't stop moving.
*Get up,* my wolf said. Not gently. She said it the way you say something to someone who is about to go under. *Get up right now.*
I got up.
The hallway was long and the lights were too bright and I kept one hand on the wall the entire way. I didn't mind-link anyone. I didn't call out. I just moved, one foot and then the other, my free hand pressed flat against my abdomen like I could hold everything in place through sheer will.
Clara opened the healer's den door before I knocked. She took one look at me and her face went the particular kind of still that healers get when they are frightened and cannot afford to show it.
'Inside,' she said. 'Now.'
She had me on the cot in under a minute. Her hands moved fast and sure, pressing, probing, her aura pushing something warm and stabilizing through her palms. I stared at the ceiling and breathed the way she told me to and didn't ask the question I was most afraid to ask.
'The pup is still there,' she said finally, quietly. 'Heartbeat is faint but it's there. You got here in time.'
I closed my eyes. Just for a second.
She mind-linked Neil. I felt the pulse of it go out—that particular vibration of an urgent pack link—and I lay there and listened to the storm and waited.
I felt him the moment he entered the packhouse. That's still how it worked, even now—the bond still functioned, still lit up like a signal fire the second he crossed the threshold. His aura filled the building, moving fast, moving toward us.
And then it stopped.
Not slowed. Stopped.
I opened my eyes and stared at the ceiling and felt, through the bond, the exact moment he changed direction.
Clara was watching the door. Her hands had gone still on my arm.
'He's not coming,' I said.
She didn't answer. She didn't have to.
Through the bond I could feel the shape of it—Aviana's small arms around his neck, the performance of breathlessness, the way his aura shifted from urgent to protective in the span of a single heartbeat. The same shift I'd watched happen at the breakfast table, in the kitchen doorway, every time she needed something from him. He had a register reserved entirely for her now, and it crowded everything else out.
I was lying on a healer's cot with my pup's heartbeat barely holding, and he was carrying her back to her bedroom.
Clara pressed a warm compress against my side and said something low and careful about rest and monitoring. I nodded. I said the right things. I kept my face composed.
And somewhere in my chest, I felt it happen.
Not a sound. Not a sensation I could describe to anyone who hadn't felt it. Just—a shift. Like a door closing in a room you'd lived in your whole life. The mate bond didn't break. It cracked. A clean, structural fracture, the kind that doesn't announce itself until the weight comes down and the whole thing gives.
My tears stopped.
I hadn't realized I'd been crying until they stopped.
I lay in the quiet of the healer's den with Clara's hands still moving carefully over my side, and I felt the grief drain out of me like water through a cracked vessel. What replaced it wasn't anger. It wasn't even pain.
It was clarity.
Neil would gaslight me. He would call this an accident, a misunderstanding, a child's nightmare. He would use his Alpha tone and his held-too-long eye contact and his absolute certainty that I would absorb it, the way I always had, because I loved him and because I believed in the bond and because I was the Luna and Lunas held things together.
Not anymore.
I pressed my palm flat against my stomach. The pup's heartbeat was faint but steady under my hand—stubborn, persistent, already fighting.
'I need you to keep this between us,' I said to Clara. My voice was even. Completely even. 'What happened tonight. Who was here. All of it.'
She looked at me for a long moment. Then she nodded once.
I stared at the ceiling and began, very quietly, to plan.
