After that day, Lara and I stopped talking to each other again.
Before, whenever we faced such a situation, I would become easily irritable and emotionally unstable.
I spent every day thinking about how to make up with Lara ASAP, and this seriously affected my work progress.
But now, I felt incredibly relaxed.
Finally, after I went home, I didn't have to act all hypocritical and take the initiative to talk to her.
Finally, I could sleep in the room alone without being disturbed at night.
Finally, I wouldn't be disturbed by her affair with the others.
Finally, I could do my own things without being disturbed.
After I let go of the obsession or care for Lara, life became much easier.
Now that she was no longer the center of my life, I suddenly felt much more relaxed.
I finished reading quite a lot of books in less than three days. In the past, it would take me more than a year.
When I was at work, I noticed that the girl at the next desk was preparing hard for the civil service exam.
The way she immersed herself in studying made me feel ashamed.
Even a girl who had just graduated knew that she should study hard. She shouldn't waste her prime years and should strive to improve herself.
On the contrary, I wasted my time in the entanglement with Lara, muddleheaded all day long.
For a while, I even thought that if I married Lara one day, we would have a child.
If Lara wanted me to stay at home full-time to take care of the child, that was OK.
The girl was studying hard at the desk, and on the contrary, I was dragged down by love and had achieved nothing.
I made up my mind to change myself.
I bought a set of study materials and made a corresponding plan for myself to be a civil servant every day.
After working overtime every day, I plunged into the study and frantically read books about the civil service exam.
I was glad that Lara and I weren't talking to each other these days. She would not come to disturb me in the study, making my efficiency even higher.
