By the time the doctor arrived, the blood on the floor had begun to congeal into a dark, ugly stain. He took one look at the scene and shook his head, his expression grim. "I'm so sorry, Mrs. Knight… the baby is gone."
"I know."
I closed my eyes as a single, cold tear traced a path down my temple.
Because of my condition, I couldn't have general anesthesia. I was awake for the entire procedure, feeling the cold, metallic instruments scrape away what was left of my baby, and my heart.
My baby, five months along—a small, budding life—was gone. His heart would never beat again. He would never hear mine. He never even got the chance to open his eyes.
"Should we send the ashes to the Knight family cemetery?" the doctor asked cautiously.
"No," I said after a long silence. "That's Ronan's place. It's too dirty."
I refused to let my child lie next to a traitor. In a secluded clearing on the estate overlooking the lake, I held a funeral only I attended. There was no priest, no flowers, only the heavy silence of the woods.
All the while, Finn, Ronan's COO, was blowing up his phone. No answer. Ronan had cut off all contact, vanishing without a trace.
I pictured him somewhere warm and comfortable, smugly satisfied with this little "punishment" he'd dealt me.
He thought I'd come crawling back, begging for forgiveness. That was a lesson he still had to learn. Some things, once broken, can never be mended.
As the first shovel of dirt landed on the small, simple urn, I suddenly realized my mysophobia wasn't just a sickness. It was my armor.
In a world of lies, money, and betrayal, it was the only thing I had left. The only thing that made me feel remotely safe.
I stood and brushed the dirt from my dress. This time, I didn't feel the urge to wash my hands.
I took out my phone, bypassed the family lawyers who always preached reconciliation, and dialed a top divorce attorney in New York City.
"I need you to draft an agreement for me."
