Meryl sent a single line.
"The house is in your name, your evidence is in order. Don't go soft."
Craig came home at noon.
He handed me a cup of warm water.
"I lost my temper last night. This weekend I'll take you to look at wedding rings."
I looked at that cup of water.
A water-temperature label of Carissa's was still stuck to the bottom.
One hundred thirteen degrees.
I didn't take it.
His phone buzzed.
A voice message from Carissa.
"Craig, this blanket's a little damp. I can't sleep."
Craig picked up his car keys.
"I'll go ask the dry cleaner. Back soon."
I asked,
"What about the ring?"
He stood in the doorway.
"That's not urgent."
I lowered my head and submitted the early-repayment appointment.
A confirmation popped up on the screen.
I tapped confirm.
He was busy nursing a blanket.
I was busy dismantling a marriage home.
Craig agreed to come with me to the hotel for the menu tasting.
I'd booked the slot two weeks in advance.
His parents had dietary restrictions, and I'd noted them three times.
Before we left, he got a call from Carissa.
She said she was too scared to go to her psych follow-up alone.
Craig glanced at me.
"You go ahead. I'll take her to her appointment and catch up with you after."
I picked up my car keys.
"Fine."
He let out a breath.
"Jennifer, I knew you'd understand."
I let the words pass without answering.
The hotel manager brought out the reception seating chart.
There was an extra name beside the head table.
Carissa Henson.
The notes were written out in detail.
Away from the speakers.
Away from the lights.
Close to the lounge.
So Mr. Gilbert could keep an eye on her.
I held the pen.
"Who changed this?"
The manager checked the computer.
"Mr. Gilbert called last night to confirm it."
I set the pen down.
"The head table is where the bride's and groom's parents sit."
The manager gave an awkward smile.
"Mr. Gilbert said Miss Henson's situation is special."
Half an hour later, Craig arrived.
Carissa trailed behind him.
She had that cashmere blanket draped over her, a folder of medical records clutched in her hand.
"Jennifer, should I not have come?"
I looked at Craig.
He stepped in front of her, shielding her.
"She's getting used to the venue ahead of time, so nothing goes wrong on the day."
I asked,
"My wedding. Who approved her getting used to it?"
Carissa's eyes rimmed red.
Craig's face darkened.
"Don't take it out on her. She can't handle a single harsh word."
I opened the menu.
"Then don't come."
The tasting began.
The first dish, the fish, came out.
Carissa covered her mouth.
"Fishy."
Craig immediately called the manager over.
"Swap this one out."
The second course, the soup, was set down.
She frowned.
"The flavor's too heavy."
Craig said,
"Swap that too."
The manager looked at me.
I pushed the menu over.
"Do what Mr. Gilbert says."
The music played for the test.
It was the warm-up song I'd chosen.
Carissa lowered her head and gripped the blanket.
"This sound presses down on me, I can't breathe."
Craig turned his head.
"Change it to a white-noise piano track."
I looked at him.
"Are the guests coming to a wedding, or coming to sleep?"
He kept his voice low.
"Jennifer, the wedding is just a formality. Carissa can't be agitated."
I asked,
"And me?"
He paused.
"You've always been stronger than her."
The words landed on the table.
I closed the folder.
Carissa spoke up softly.
"Maybe I just shouldn't come, so the two of you don't fight."
Craig immediately grabbed her wrist.
"No one's telling you to leave."
I saw his hand clearly.
Only then did he catch himself, and let go.
