A choking voice came into the receiver and my sister asked me anxiously. "What's wrong, Monica? Why are you crying so sadly?"
I raised my hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of my eyes, pretending to be calm and told her.
"Sister, do something for me in two days. I want to leave John forever."
Although my sister was puzzled, she agreed to my request without thinking.
After all, I still didn't tell her that I had cancer. Maybe, when the time comes, she would know.
***
John finally decided to come back. The blush on his cheeks seemed to have not completely faded and he hurriedly opened the door. Perhaps out of guilt for me, he held a delicate box in his hand.
"Monica, I know that your physical defect is a big blow to you. It's useless to blame me. I didn't find out that you were sick for so long. If you had found it earlier, you wouldn't have come to this point. But it doesn't matter. I invited the best experts in the country. They will definitely help you recover as before," John said with tears in his eyes and then slowly opened the velvet box in his hand.
It was an emerald necklace and he handed it to me carefully. "Do you like it? If you like it, I will buy it for you every day in the future."
I reached out to touch the necklace in the box. It was very dazzling, but I couldn't wear something that someone else had thrown away. If I remember correctly, when John and I got married, Jessica had already worn this necklace on her chest.
I asked him, "John, do you still remember what I said when we got married?"
I took my hand back and looked at the affectionate man in front of me. He didn't seem to expect that I would suddenly ask this, so he put the box on the table and sat on the edge of the bed.
"How could I not remember? You said that was your happiest day. Your childhood playmates finally became lovers who stayed together day and night."
It turned out that John still remembered that we were childhood sweethearts, but after more than 20 years of companionship, I was not as good as a woman he had met a few times. But he forgot the most important sentence I said.
"I also said that if you don't love me anymore, or if you have another woman, you must tell me right away. I will take the initiative to withdraw and then go to a place you will never find in this life again."
Before I finished speaking, John directly covered my mouth with his hand.
"I remember everything, but I won't let this happen and I won't let you leave me. In this life, you will only be the wife of my Lagerfeld Family."
I turned my face away, no longer looking at him, but looking at the flock of birds flying freely outside the window. It was John who forced me to get to this point. I gave him chances again and again, but he didn't know how to cherish them.
"I want to go home, I don't want to stay in the hospital anymore."
***
In the evening, John arranged a car to take me back to the villa on the hillside. Through the French window, I clearly saw that Jessica moved in next door with her luggage.
At dinner, John asked the nanny to cook a lot of my favorite dishes. The food in the bowl was piled up like a mountain, but I had no appetite at all.
John put down his chopsticks and looked at me worriedly. "What's wrong, Monica? Is it not to your taste? Otherwise, I'll ask the cook to make it again."
I sneered and looked at John who pretended to be indifferent. "If I suddenly disappeared one day, would you look for me all over the world?"
John pursed his lips. "Why? Am I not good enough for you? If there is something I didn't do well, tell me, but can you please don't scare me with such words? You know, I can't live without you."
