I watched him drop the boy off at school every morning at exactly 7:15. I watched him stroll alongside Maya, her belly swollen with child.
I watched her call him "honey," over and over again. My husband.
I took out my phone, recorded everything, and saved it all to my computer.
That evening, Jonathan came home carrying grocery bags.
"Good thing I rushed over yesterday. Graham spiked a hundred-and-four fever in the middle of the night. Any later and it could've turned into pneumonia."
"Maya was holding him and just sobbing. Poor thing. If Leonard were still around, at least she'd have someone to lean on."
He rattled off the details as casually as if he'd actually been there, like he was recounting something he'd witnessed firsthand.
He went on and on. When he noticed my flat expression, he slid over with a grin and draped his arm around my shoulders.
"Babe, you're still mad?"
"Yesterday I just heard Graham had a fever and panicked. I shouldn't have snapped at you. I'm sorry."
He looked well-fed. Satisfied. A flush sat high on his cheeks, and his eyes had that lazy, sated look of a man who'd just eaten his fill.
The smell clinging to him hit my nose, and my stomach lurched. I bolted for the bathroom.
Jonathan followed, hovering behind me with a look of concern. "What's wrong? Did you catch a cold?"
I hadn't eaten all day. Nothing came up but bile. I grabbed a towel, wiped the corners of my mouth, blotted the tears that had squeezed out, and turned to face him with a steady gaze.
"I missed my period this month. I think I might be pregnant."
Jonathan's hand froze in midair. He stood there, rigid, staring at my stomach in disbelief.
"How could you just... be pregnant? Are you sure?"
"Have you been to the doctor?"
I sidestepped the question. I looked him dead in the eye and spoke slowly, deliberately, one word at a time.
"Jonathan, I'm thirty-five. If I don't have this baby, I'll never get another chance to be a mother."
His brow furrowed. He seemed to be choosing his words carefully.
"Silvia, you know I just got promoted to sales manager. The pressure is enormous. I'm traveling all the time. How could I possibly be a responsible father?"
"Besides, we've still got three thousand a month in mortgage payments, plus six thousand to my parents..."
"We agreed when we got married. Childfree for life. We have each other, and that's enough. We're not young anymore. Why put ourselves through that?"
He piled on reason after reason, and by the end, he'd turned it around on me, accusing me of going back on my word, of putting him in an impossible position.
I said one thing, calmly.
"Fine. I won't keep it."
Then I walked into the bedroom and closed the door.
In that moment, the last flicker of hope I had for this marriage went out.
Jonathan left on another business trip.
I hired the best private investigator I could find. When he handed me the evidence, I still cried.
Every month, the money Jonathan claimed he was sending to his parents for living expenses went straight into Maya's account.
The mortgage on Maya's house? Jonathan had been paying it all along. Four thousand six hundred a month.
The boy's school tuition. The baby girl's formula and supplies. All Jonathan. Four thousand a month on average.
And the amount he gave me each month for living expenses? Zero. The mortgage on our apartment was split evenly, three thousand each.
Because he'd told me he was a man, a sales manager, always entertaining clients, always fronting expenses. He couldn't let his bank account run dry.
I made eight thousand a month. After the mortgage, utilities, groceries, and every other bill, I had barely a thousand left. That was why I couldn't bring myself to buy that twenty-three-hundred-dollar coat.
I stared at the school parent group chat. The most recent message was from a teacher:
"Graham's father, next week is parent-teacher conference. We'd like you to come up and share your parenting experience. Please prepare something in advance."
And below it, a notice from the pediatric clinic:
"Sharon's father, please bring her in this Wednesday for her third round of vaccinations."
