Callan Drake POV:
The scent of Ericka still clung to me, a cloying sweetness that made my head ache. I had just dropped her off at her apartment, her fingers lingering on my arm, her eyes pleading for me to stay. She was a potent distraction, a thrill, a challenge. But my mind was elsewhere. An unfamiliar anxiety tightened its grip on my gut. Something felt wrong.
"You should stay, my king," she had purred, her fingers tracing idle patterns on my palm. "Just for a little while longer."
"No," I muttered, shaking my head. "I have to get back to Claire." I had promised her tonight. Our anniversary. The guilt was a bitter slug in my stomach.
I hadn't touched Claire in weeks. Months, even. The thought of her, waiting for me, perhaps with that quiet, expectant look in her eyes, twisted a fresh knot of remorse in my chest. She had been so quiet lately, so compliant. I had rationalized it, convinced myself it was a sign of her maturity, her understanding of my demanding schedule. I had convinced myself I could have both. The stability of my marriage, the thrill of an affair. An emperor's arrogance.
Ericka, sensing my withdrawal, pressed herself against me, her arms snaking around my waist. "But I bought this just for you," she whispered, her voice a seductive caress. "A little something to make you forget everything else." She pulled back a fraction, her eyes sparkling, a challenge in their depths. "Don't you want to see?"
My breath hitched. The desire was a hot, insistent thrum beneath my skin. But then, Claire' s face, quiet and hurt, flashed in my mind.
"No, Ericka," I said, my voice rough, pulling her hands from under my shirt. "Not tonight. I have to be with my wife. I promised her." My words were weak, even to my own ears.
Ericka knew me too well. Her lower lip trembled, a subtle manipulation that usually worked. "But she's so… fragile. So… broken," she sneered, her eyes gleaming with malice.
A flash of anger, hot and sharp, flared within me. She had no right to speak of Claire like that. But the anger was quickly swallowed by the rising tide of lust, mingled with a baffling confusion.
"I can give you what she cannot," Ericka continued, her voice dropping to a low, potent whisper. "A true heir. A lineage for your empire. Not a barren queen."
The words hit me like a physical blow. Children. Claire couldn't bear children. It was a silent, aching void in our lives, a wound that had never truly healed for me, for the legacy I was meant to build. The shame, the quiet despair I had tried to bury, resurfaced with brutal clarity.
I had no answer ready.
I pulled her hands away, stepping back, putting a definitive distance between us. My royal tone, the one I reserved for insubordinate executives, returned. "Do not speak of my wife like that again, Ericka. She is my life. She is everything to me." The words tasted like ash. Were they true? Was Claire still my life? My everything?
I turned and walked away, ignoring her plaintive calls. I needed air. I needed to wash her scent from my skin, from my clothes, from my very being. I needed to find a way to make myself believe my own lies again.
