Kane finished his meal in silence, a rare occurrence. Usually, he' d talk business, or complain about his family, or sometimes, on even rarer occasions, he' d talk about nothing at all, just content with my quiet presence. Tonight, he was distant. His phone buzzed intermittently, but he ignored it, his attention fixed on some invisible point beyond the window. Then, with a curt nod, he rose.
"I'm leaving." It was the first time in weeks he hadn't stayed. The sudden shift in routine was a punch to the gut, confirming the icy premonition that had been building inside me. He was pulling away, preparing for his real life.
"Your schedule for tomorrow?" he asked, not turning to face me. "Anything I need to arrange?"
My mind raced. I couldn't tell him I planned to leave. I couldn't tell him I'd spent the day cancelling appointments, clearing my calendar. "No," I said, my voice surprisingly steady. "Just a few online meetings. Nothing major."
He grunted, seemingly satisfied. He never bothered to check. His control was so absolute, he assumed I wouldn't dare defy it. "I'll have a car pick you up if you need to go anywhere."
"No, thank you," I said quickly, perhaps too quickly. "I'll... I'll just manage."
He paused at the door, his hand on the knob. I knew this was my chance. My last chance to say something, anything, to break the suffocating silence of our unspoken ending.
"Kane." His name was a whisper, a plea.
He turned, his expression a flicker of mild surprise. "Yes, Eden?" He looked at me, really looked at me, and I could almost see the image of Harper superimposed over my face. The world outside the window was bright and sharp, a stark contrast to my fading internal landscape. He was meant for that world, for her. I was meant for this quiet, shadowed apartment.
The words died in my throat. What was there to say? Don't leave me? Love me, not her? It would be pathetic. It already was.
"Nothing," I managed, forcing a small smile. "Just... drive safely."
He gave a soft, almost indulgent laugh. "Always do, Eden." He stepped out, closing the door softly behind him.
I didn't wait. The second the click of the lock echoed, I spun around and leaned against the door, my body trembling. I wrapped my arms around myself, trying to hold the pieces together. He hadn't called my name. Not once, in all these years, in all these goodbyes. He hadn't ever really called my name, not the way he called hers.
The apartment, once filled with his lingering scent, suddenly felt sterile, cold. I moved through the motions, clearing the dinner dishes, wiping down the counters until they gleamed. I'd learned his preferences quickly, absorbing them into my own existence. No personal touches in the living spaces. No bright colors. No photographs.
Once, early in our relationship, I'd bought a small, potted orchid, thinking it would bring some life to the stark white walls. He' d seen it and his jaw had tightened. "Get rid of it," he'd said, his voice quiet but firm. "It clashes with the aesthetic." When I hesitated, he added, "If you want to keep filling this place with your... things, I'll find somewhere else to stay." The threat was clear. He would leave. And I, desperate for a home, for him, had complied. I had thrown away the orchid.
Later, I'd seen a similar orchid in Harper's office, a vibrant splash of color against a minimalist backdrop. His secretary had commented on how well it suited Harper's "artistic flair." I had stopped trying to add anything of myself to this apartment after that.
My hand brushed against a small, velvet box tucked deep in a drawer. It contained a delicate silver St. Christopher's medal. The one I'd given him at camp those years ago. He'd returned it to me after a few months, claiming it was "childish" and "meaningless," a small, pointed jab that had stung more than he knew. I remembered the hours I' d spent working odd jobs to buy that medal, the belief that it would genuinely protect him. He never knew the sacrifice. He never cared.
I was supposed to be a famous influencer, a social media personality he had meticulously crafted. He had built my brand, managed my contracts, even dictated my posts. It wasn't what I wanted. I loved plants, the earth, the quiet hum of growth. But he wanted me to be shiny, visible, a reflection of his power. And I, pathetic and craving his approval, had agreed.
A deep sigh escaped me, rattling my ribs. I picked up the medal, its cool metal a stark contrast to the burning in my chest. This was it. The end of my pathetic charade.
My phone buzzed, startling me. I almost dropped the medal.
