My sudden setbacks dim Clavis’s protesting voice. He cooled down and tried to reason with me. He called my name thousands of times and tried to chase after me but I frowned.
“Clavis, come after me now and you can never find me.” I snorted, “Go to Lina, don't come to disturb me. This is the last warning.”
But he didn't listen and wanted to follow until Lina called out for help, “Clavis don't leave me. I am hurt.”
Only then he hesitated for a while before following her. Little by little the strong scent of blueberry disappeared behind me.
I didn't have any energy left dealing with either of them. All I wanted was to have a life where I could be happy.
When I got off the cab, I made my way upstairs in the apartment which never really belonged to me.
In these six years, there were only a few times when I could finally feel Clavis's love and most of the time it was only bed. When we mated, only with the skin slapping sound, I heard him mumbling every time how good he felt and that was all. I could never get back those three years when Clavis was a sweet boy who could do anything for me. The more he got distant to me, the more I fell in love with him, endlessly until I was tired, wounded and half dead. I layed down on the bed, weak and disturbed from the recent incidents. I still wondered how people could change that much but what was more shocking was that after getting over his feelings, these things did not hurt me anymore.
Meanwhile, I took my phone to see if there was any updates, then I saw the trail of messages in the group chat.
It was from Lina.
The group chat was flooded with Lina and Clavis’s picture, she even sent a picture of a diamond which was bigger than one Clavis gave me in our wedding and like a shiny bubble making clear who was Clavis’s first priority now.
She added a caption saying [I can't wait for the day when I will be completely his!]
Everyone in the group already knew who was the priority now and they all took turns to flatter her.
[Wow! You are the match made in heaven!]
[Future Luna spottedddd!]
[We can finally sigh in relief as Alpha won't give us a hard time anymore!]
[God bless this couple.]
I had had these flatteries, so I didn't feel anything anymore. When we were very loving to each other, Clavis never left my hand anywhere from meeting to gala. Everyone liked to take our pictures and posted it on this group. They flattered us with exactly the same comments. The dry laughter made my heart pound when I tossed my phone aside.
Before Lina came back from abroad, I helped Clavis to handle the pack’s matter, later my dad insisted on having Lina to learn those things and asked Clavis to hire her. Since then everything had turned out to be like this. One day someone from the pack wrote in the group chat that I could handle everything better than Lina, Clavis was so angry that he wanted to banish her. Later I begged him not to do it. Thinking how he protected my sister’s reputation, I was quite happy until I realised I was just a puppet who could restore their reputation and that was all for me. All these nine years I stayed here became a joke overnight.
“I was such a fool!” I laughed at myself for being such a fool and believed them. Everyone in my family betrayed me, even the man I loved, the man I thought to be my salvation, killed my feelings with his own hand. All I had was me and myself. If I ever got the chance to redo my life, I had never chosen him.
Tears rolled down from my hand, I couldn't hold back anymore.
I flopped on the bed and cried while burying my face in my knees. I was feeling so weak and heartbroken that I felt I would die at any moment. I just wanted to drain the memories from my head so that he could no longer remember anyone and anything. When I looked up from crying, my eyes were swollen and it was already dark outside.
“I can’t leave here anymore.” I already decided to leave this place, so there was no need for me to cry, was there? I was determined to choose a good life to live and this time I would not rely on the man until he was the right person.
Opening the wardrobe, I started to pack my bag, determined to leave from here. I took out every little things in detail until I spottedy wedding gown and the letters we wrote every years to us since the day we fell in love. We already wrote letters to ourselves for nine years it was only one year left but Clavis destroyed the sweet memories, failed the fifteen years old girl who fell heads over heels for this guy. Taking out them along with my wedding dress, I burnt them in the balcony. When the gatekeeper noticed the flame informed Clavis who just entered inside the residency area.
Running when he entered home, everything almost turned into ashes. Angry and disappointed, Clavis made a fuss again until he noticed the indifference in my eyes. Holding me tightly he gasped, demanding to know the reason for my insane behaviour.
“Marianne, what's wrong with you?” He shook me hard, “Have you gone insane?”
