The banquet hall smelled like roasted meat and old money and the particular kind of tension that gathers when five Alpha delegations sit in the same room and pretend to like each other.
I carried the tray with my left hand. My right arm hung at my side, the bandaging stiff and yellow-brown at the edges where the wound kept weeping through. I had learned in three days to do most things left-handed. Pour. Bow. Step back. Don't let the tray tilt.
Meadow sat at Edison's right in a gown the color of fresh cream. She looked like a painting someone had commissioned to hang above a fireplace. Her hair was pinned with silver clips. Her scent—that white-floral sweetness she weaponized like a perfume counter—drifted all the way to the servants' corridor.
She found my eyes across the hall.
Then she looked, just once, at a man seated near the archway. Dark jacket. Thick hands. One of Edison's inner circle—I'd seen him run perimeter drills. He gave no sign back. Just reached forward and adjusted something on the tray near the servants' station.
I noted it. I kept moving.
The water cup came back to me during the second round of service. Someone had set it on my tray during the exchange. I didn't see who. I drank from it because refusing would have drawn attention, and I was past the point of small rebellions that cost me more than they cost anyone else.
The wolfsbane hit in under four minutes.
I knew the taste—bitter, metallic, with that faint chemical sweetness underneath, like antifreeze. My healer's mind cataloged it even as my legs stopped cooperating. Concentrated. Probably three times a standard dose. My vision went white at the edges, then the floor came up and I met it with my shoulder and hip, and the tray went with me, and the sound of breaking glass cut through the music and the conversation and everything went very, very quiet.
My body seized. I couldn't stop it. Three hundred wolves and five visiting delegations watched me convulse on the banquet floor like a fish dropped on dry land.
I turned my head to the side so I wouldn't aspirate. Healer's reflex. Even then.
From the head table, Edison did not move. I could see his shoes from where I lay—polished black, perfectly still. Meadow's voice floated down from somewhere above me, soft and distressed and precisely calibrated.
"She does this," she murmured to him. "She wants people to look at her. Don't let it ruin the evening."
The pack healer came eventually. He crouched, administered something into the crook of my elbow, and straightened before I could speak. Partial antidote. I felt it—the seizing slowed, but the nausea stayed, and the trembling in my limbs stayed, and the burning behind my eyes stayed. Two Omegas hooked their hands under my arms and dragged me to a side room off the corridor.
The door closed.
I lay on the stone floor for a while because the bench was too far and the floor was cold and cold helped.
I counted my own breaths. In. Out. In.
Something inside me paced. Not a thought—a presence. Tight, furious circles, like an animal in a space too small for it. My wolf, who had been silent my entire life, was not silent now. She couldn't speak yet. But I felt her rage like a second heartbeat, hot and enormous, pressing against the inside of my sternum.
I pressed back. Not now, I told her, though I didn't know how I knew to say it. Not yet.
By dawn I had identified the concentration level from symptom progression alone. Three-to-one wolfsbane solution, introduced orally. Enough to incapacitate a wolf for six to eight hours. Not enough to kill. The dosage had been chosen carefully—it was a message, not an execution. Someone wanted me weak and humiliated in front of the delegations. Someone wanted witnesses.
I filed it away with everything else and waited for my legs to hold my weight again.
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Edison called me to his study the next morning.
He was standing at the window when I entered, his back to me. Caden Voss stood near the door with his hands clasped and his gaze fixed on a point somewhere between the floor and the wall. He had been doing that a lot lately—looking at nothing, very carefully.
"There was an incident on the mind-link last night," Edison said, still facing the window. "Messages. Between Meadow and a Beta from the Greyvale delegation. They were deleted before most wolves could read them."
He paused.
"Most," he said again.
I waited.
He turned. His face was arranged into something flat and controlled, but underneath it something was working—not grief, not shame. Just the machinery of a man solving a problem.
"You'll wear her dress today," he said. "The blue one. It's already been sent to your room."
I understood immediately. The dress would be soaked in Meadow's scent—that white-floral signature every wolf in the pack could identify. I would walk the grounds wearing it, and every wolf who caught the scent would associate the scandal with me. Meadow's reputation would stay clean. Mine would absorb the stain.
"Yes, Alpha," I said.
Caden's jaw moved. He didn't speak.
The dress was exactly what I expected—pale blue silk, expensive, and drenched so thoroughly in Meadow's perfume that my eyes watered when I pulled it over my head. The sleeves were too long. They covered my bandaged hand almost to the knuckles. I decided that was useful.
I walked the full circuit of the pack grounds.
I took the main path first, past the training yard and the meal hall, past the elders' garden and the eastern gate. Wolves stopped talking when I passed. Some of them wrinkled their noses. A few whispered. One of the visiting Gamma's mates turned to her companion and said something I wasn't meant to hear but did.
I looked at every face that sneered at me. I memorized them.
From the balcony above the main courtyard, Edison stood with Meadow's arm threaded through his. She was smiling at something he'd said. She didn't look down at me.
She didn't need to.
I completed the circuit and went back to my room and sat on the edge of the bed and held my ruined hand against my chest and let my wolf pace her furious circles in the dark behind my ribs.
She was getting stronger. I could feel it.
Something was coming. I didn't know what shape it would take. But whatever it was, I needed to still be standing when it arrived.
